Be You ---- Part 3 ---- Dear You

Dear you,

Whoever you are, wherever you’re from, here’s a little truth I’d like to share.

Don’t trust too much, the people who say they’d always be there, are most likely going to be the ones to walk away first. I don’t blame them, after seeing a tornado come who wouldn’t run, I would too. So don’t trust too much.

If you’re like me you’d draw lines and build walls, but then that one person comes crossing all the lines, breaking all the walls, and you let them. You let them see the inner most side of you; you let them call you their ‘best friend’. Then a storm comes your way, if you’re like me, it wouldn’t be a big storm, but a storm’s a storm. And you start fighting for them, for your ‘friendship’. Does it really exist?

So you build another wall, but they break it down again, if you’re like me, you let them. And it starts again, this game of charades. You play to win but you always lose.

You can fight as much as you like, for the friendship, for the relationship, but if you’re the only one fighting, what’s the point? You’re the type of person who’d never give up on people, but slowly you’re starting to lose your faith in humanity.  How much more will you fight for a person that doesn’t want to be fought for? How many tears will you shed for a person who doesn’t even know?

Action speaks louder than words, but all you ever did was hear what they had to say but never see what they did. Their words were like a black veil covering your eyes telling you that trusting them was the right thing to do. You ignored their actions because to you, words speak louder.

And you could fight; you could fight till your last breadth, but is it worth it? Will it ever be worth it?

Don’t trust too much, they’d be the people that let you down the most.

If you’d asked me a month back, I would have said ‘fight’. I would have said fight with everything you have, because some people are just that important, you would have done a lot for her, you would have fought.

But I’m not that girl anymore, some people are worth fighting for, some just aren’t. You can’t always be the only one fighting, so know when to stop. Sometimes instead of fighting, you just need to let go, you need to know you expected more than they were ever will to give, you EXPECTED.

So what do you do next? Do you give up? Build another wall? Draw another line?

If you’d have asked me a month ago, I would have said yes.

But I’m not that girl any more.

Lines are drawn to be crossed; walls are built to be broken. Neither of the 2 ever stay, someone will come along and cross all your lines and break all your walls.

So stop drawing lines and building walls, it makes you look like a coward. You can’t keep shutting out because of one person.

Live, because this is your life.

Live, because you have every right to.

Be more cautious about people, not life. Take a good enough risk, so that 10 years from now you don’t regret it.

Forgive because you were made out of forgiveness.

Make the changes you need to make, let go of the toxic ones, but don’t build walls.

Let the rain touch your barren skin.

Let the sun kiss your cheek.

Don’t fight more than you should.

Because one day you will find a person who is willing to fight for you.

And to end it,

Be You,

Because you’re Good enough.

Because you are Enough

Be You ---- Part 2 ----

“They are angry with me because they know what I am.” Said the little eagle. “How do you know that they are angry with you?” “Because they despise me for wanting to soar, they only want me to peck at the dirt, looking for ants, with them. But I can’t do that. I don’t have chicken feet, I have eagle wings.” “And what is so wrong with having eagle wings and no chicken feet?” asked the owl. “I’m not sure that’s what I’m trying to find out.” “They hate you because they know what you are, an eagle and they want you think you are a chicken so that you will peck at the ground looking for ants and worms, so that you will never know that you are an eagle and always think yourself a chicken.  Let them hate you, they will always be chickens, and you will always be an eagle. You must fly. You must soar.” Said the old owl. -  C.JoyBell C.

You’re a kid, trying to figure your way out of this labyrinth, caught up in a messy childhood with memories you don’t want to keep. But what choice do you have? You don’t even know who you are. Years pass by, eventually you start to paint the future you want, you start to dream big dreams, and you start to look for your happy ever after. You know what you want to become, so one day you start talking about it. You tell people the big dreams you have and the different sky’s you want to touch and the galaxies you want to see. But they look at you, sad faces and everything, they put their hands on your shoulder and say ‘Son, you’re not a bird. Don’t fly, you won’t make it’.

But what if you want to fly? What if you were born to fly?

Most times we forget to look at the bigger picture; most times we are stuck in our own little boxes not willing to step out. Why? Because that one person told us we can’t do it. I think that’s the reason most young people give up before even dreaming.

We let people define who we are, we let people make the choices for us, and we let ourselves get lost in this assumption that ‘talking to other people’ about our problems will magically solve them. So what we tend to do is, we let people tell us who we are, we let people sort out the problems we don’t want to face. But there is always a line, and most times we regret letting those people cross it.

Everyone at some point will try to bring you down, they would tell you how wrong you are, remember that most times these are the people who want to understand everything but eventually don’t.

We rely on a mere mundane for advice, we look to man for right and wrong, eventually losing our respect for humanity just because we were dumb enough to expect.

Worst of all, we tend to forget to look at God, we sort of forget he’s around and waiting to give us our solution.

I expected so much from so many people, both family and friends. Most time I’m always amazed with the way they disappoint. Most often the ones you expect to be there end up being the ones who aren’t. Most times they are the first to stand against what you want. Most times they don’t see how happy a specific thing makes you. They assume their way of living is the correct way, they try to force it down, and they try to brain wash you into believing you’re a chicken.

Remember, you are an eagle, you have wings, and you will soar.

Most people will try and pull you down,

But there are always a few who stand there to pick you up, find them and hold on to them with everything you have.

I haven’t found them yet,

But I think I will.

You will too.

For what it’s worth,

Always BE YOU.